It's a bit weird, but why..

We never ask, we never learn.We listen but without  attention.We look at something,we don't observe,rather we don't think.Like a small minuscule hole in a door is good enough for light to get inside a dark room, and with that all the dust particles inside  become visible, so are habits and fabrics of our character.We face this situation almost everyday, at least I do,but I don't learn from those.I know there are certain things which no matter with what intention I do, will make a lot of people unhappy, but still I do.It becomes really troublesome for me accept myself sometimes, but again accepting the unacceptable is a skill which I have to learn.

It's been a strange year for me,I really don't know how to rate it.I can't say it went bad because so many good things happened to me.I can't say it's excellent because I don't think I did make/learn anything which made myself happy.Things went in a slow and strange pace and in it's way threw a few sparkling stones in my lap which I grabbed both handed.Those stones made me happy and I moved on,I never tried anything to sharpen my saw.There was a saying that we all should know how to learn, unlearn and re-learn.Nobody said what we are supposed to do when we don't even want to learn but do things considering that as a liability as we know if we don't do that, the way we are enjoying our life, we won't be able to do that.I don't know exactly how much truth is their in it.But I tend to believe it's true.

A lot of things need to be changed,need to discipline my thought process,need to create a list first.But right now I think I have written enough shit which should kick my ass to send me to sleep.

Regularly irregular..yes, I am..

It's been a while since I wrote.In between my present and last post , a lot has happened.I went to Hyderabad,State Bank Staff College for ALP training.Had a fantastic time there,made lots of friends.I went there along with arka, arup and jaimalya.I learned not from books but from each and everyone around me out there.Moreover ,had a room- mate from Lucknow circle,Siddarth.Well, he taught me so many things, right from what not  to wear in the room to why I should be more courageous to wear jeans in classes.I learned from Arka,well, so many things that it'll take me at least ten pages to write that down.And undoubtedly from Arup, I learned that there is only one TV channel under the sun worth paying attention,that is CNBC TV18.Others are just for stupids.

After spending almost a month with guys and girls of different circles, I understood a lot about others thinking patterns as I feel it's really important.I came back to kolkata in mid-november.Missed diwali at home for the first time in my life, anyways there's always first time for everything.After joining Elliot road branch I got posted to Clearing cpc and Pension cpc for 1 week each.now,posted at TFCPC, kolkata.It's an interesting place, for the first time i heard an AGM saying,"look i don't like people to reach office after 10 am and stay back after 5 ."  Wow, what an attitude!!!!!hat's off..and more interesting thing is that this TFCPC is  one of the best performers in this segemnt in our bank.

The fear of confirmation test is looming large,probably in Feb'11.I'm trying , let's see how it turns out to be.
Before I take my fingers off the keyboard,I want to lie again, to myself . Yes, I'll try to be regular.:)